Carrie Underwood Admits Her Flaws, Swears She’s Not a Sociopath in Marie Claire Cover Issue
Carrie Underwood‘s celebrity status makes her seem almost untouchable, but she’s not afraid to admit that, just like every other human being, she has flaws. The singer recently opened up in the cover issue of Marie Claire and explained just exactly what her idiosyncrasies are — and why they don’t make her a sociopath.
“We were never a huggy family. Or a ‘let’s talk it out’ family,” the singer reveals. “Technically I have siblings, but they are quite a bit older than me — I was the accident — so I have the only-child syndrome going on. I’m a little more selfish, a little more independent, a little closed.”
“I do wish I were softer,” she admits. “I wish I were able to form relationships better. But hey, I mean …” she pauses, laughing, “I’m not a sociopath.”
In fact, the songstress’ tendency to be a more independent and not super touchy-feely translated to a difficult transition at the grassroots of her brand new singing career.
“At the beginning of my career, I used to have panic attacks,” she shares. “People were touching me, screaming – it made me really nervous. In public, I just get nervous. It’s a physical reaction, feeling like the walls are closing in.”
“The fans are great. It’s not their fault,” Underwood clarifies. “I don’t ever want to come across as ungrateful. But on my end, it is hard for me to process. Because I am still just me.”
The ‘Two Black Cadillacs’ superstar accepts that perhaps she’s not always the greatest friend when it comes to her personal relationships. “I’m probably not great at talking or understanding emotional things. I’ll totally listen. But I won’t have a lot of advice to give,” she spills. “I’m bad at calling to check in, the long conversation. But in the ways that really matter, I’m there. I would donate a kidney. The people they hate, I hate.”
While the singer is composed in every performance — whether it’s a heartfelt ballad on her old stomping grounds of ‘American Idol’ or a dramatic No. 1 hit — she isn’t always completely put together, according to her hockey playing husband, Mike Fisher. In fact, he calls her ”the queen of awkward moments: and says that his wife “is brutally honest sometimes. She doesn’t know how to hide her feelings.”
In Underwood’s words, “Anything that can be made awkward, I will make it awkward.”
In spite of not being a people person — her mom’s words — Underwood is still an inspiration to so many. In fact, her honesty in opening up about her flaws just adds to the great respect that millions of fans already have for her.
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